Aw, nuts.

[Niobe]

Well, my carbs were sooooo over today ... right about 100g. Dang. I just had a little bit of pasta (whole wheat at least), a little bit of bread (because "the family" bought French bread and I thought if I had just the thinnest slice I'd get over my craving for it ... and I did! :) ), a little bit of chocolate (see "french bread justification", also a success), a little bit of peach chardonnay (mmm ... bad me, bad) ... but it added up. :( :( :( I pulled one of those stupid "a little won't hurt me" things, with way too many things. That'll learn me. I hope. I always seem to do this when my weight is at a new low (247 is a new three-year-low for me), I need to work on the self-sabotage thing.

I'm not really worried so much about this one day of over-carbing (although compared to when I wasn't paying attention to what I ate at all, it's still 200-300 grams LESS of carb that an old average day). What I'm worried about is what kind of cravings I'm going to have tomorrow, when I'm working in a restaurant all day and eating at least two meals there. Plus my friends want me to go out dancing and drinking with them tomorrow night ... tomorrow's definitely going to be a challenge. Wish me luck.

[Billie]

Drink lots of water today, eat your protein, stay focused and lets and remember how good that 247 number is looking and feeling. And another thing...:rolleyes: you CAN do this, changing your thought process will help, but don't expect it to happen over night, little by little step by step...and heck we are pretty fun people to be going through carb overload with you!

[Missy]

Hang in there Niobe!! I can SO RELATE!!!! ~ but, just take it as lesson learned!!!..and get right back on track!

Congratulations on your new LOW! :D

[gitfiddle]

...And come back and tell us how it went! :)

[cmcole]

Go for a walk and vent (or whatever your choice of exercise).

Then, get right back on track and don't berate yourself (but remember lessons learned)

[Niobe]

Well, my carbs were still around the 100g range today, but not for the reason I feared--(seemingly) uncontrollable cravings. In fact, I didn't crave anything. I even had a bite of the brownie dessert I loved so much and was completely turned off by it, didn't even consider taking the rest when it was offered to me.

What happened today is thankfully not something I struggle with often, but often enough I should know to get enough rest. Sometimes, often when I'm tired or haven't eaten in an extremely long time, there's only a very limited number of things I can stand to eat. If I try to force anything else down my throat, I'll uncontrollably gag it up. :( Sadly, most meat falls into this category, as do eggs, cheese, and even milk; most fruits; bread; anything mushy. Actually, what I CAN eat is a shorter list: very crisp fruits and vegetables, and very dry breaded meat. I think it's because they don't conform to my throat and make me feel like I'm suffocating, or something.

I'm not sure what causes this; usually I try to just wait it out, munch on what I can and eat more when I can. But working all day, I had very specific, short breaks to eat (not allowed to eat while clocked in, not even allowed to keep a glass of water tucked away which makes getting my water a challenge), and not eating any protein was not an option. So I did the best I could with boneless hot wings and salad (though once the lettuce started to get even slightly soggy I couldn't do it anymore).

Reading over this, it sounds very strange and like I'm searching for justification or reasons to eat junk. But whatever causes my gag reflex to go into overdrive, I had to deal with it. And I'm not beating myself up over it, because if I hadn't had some protein I'd've collapsed halfway through the first dinner rush. Actually, far from being disappointed in myself, I'm ecstatic that that brownie was so completely unappealing. :) Definitely making progress.

Since I mentioned it, though, I don't suppose anybody else has my gagging problem?

[realruth]

There are times when I've had a similar thing .....In the past.....long ago and always it was related to stress/emotional issues.

These days I keep protein shakes on hand for those semi feelings of can't stand to eat that.
I also found yoghurt (a small 1/4 cup) taken a few minutes before main food very helpful in overiding the feelings.

[Niobe]

Maybe it was stress-related, I haven't really kept track of what's going on every time it happens. It's not so much not being able to stand eating something as not being able to swallow, though. Anyway, it was only that one day this time so I'm not worrying about it too much.