Feb 21..I know you wanna leave me but I refuse to let you GO....

[hawk]

Good morning!!! That's how I feel my fat sings to me....
I'm trying to shake it off, to work it off, to sweat it off. It just loves me too much...

How's your day going??

Do you have a plan?? are you working it?? Is your work out planned?
Are you raring to go??

It takes just as much faith to believe you are going to fail as it takes to believe you are going to succeed.

Go for it today.. You can succeed..

love you all..
Lynn

[Mitra]

Good morning, Hawk :). Thanks for starting our day off with a bang :D.

[mepc06]

Hawk?......Hawk!!!! It's not even daylight yet....where'd you come from?
Happy, Happy, Happy to see you this early in the morning....The whole day just got better.
Slept in a little this morning because I was up at 2.
Ash Wednesday, so things are a little different today on my end.
Hope you all have great day today.
Michelle

[mepc06]

That was just too easy. The whole point here is to reach out for help.....
:mad:
I don't know what to do anymore. I'm frustrated and tired and stressed and nothing is working right. I was doing better when I had chocolate and pretzels periodically :eek: than I am when I'm really, really, really good. It was not my intention to gain weight before my trip, but rather to lose more.
Obviously the walk on Sunday did NOT help my cause at all, or all the stairs and walking I do in a day, or the Cardio Bands I do 4 days a week. My eating has been right on plan. No mess ups for over a week and I weigh more now than I did after the last "Carbfest".
I am seriously contemplating stopping at Burger King for sausage croissanwich this a.m. on my way to work. Haven't been to Burger King since December, Haven't had a "whole" croissanwich since October. Thinking a little shock therapy might be in order....I still may not lose any weight, but then there will be a reason for the gain.

Have a good day.....really,
Michelle

[kpow]

Good morning.

Michelle, girl, that is stinkin' thinkin'! You know shock therapy will just raise your blood sugar. Just say NO! That water weight will disappear.

Hawk, you rock! :D

Can't stay long because it's a busy day for me. Singing at the Ash Wed. service for the girls' high school, then off to Hot Springs for the afternoon, and choir rehearsal tonight. Today is a day of fast and abstinence too, which means only fish or seafood, and just one full meal for the day. Maybe it'll give me a little boost.;)

Shadow, please give me a "YES" for 2/20. :)

Have a great hump day, ya'll!

Kathy

[Bonnie]

Good morning all!

Hang in there Michelle! I don't know if this is from the grandmother in me or the librarian, but remember the little engine that could, "I think I can, I think I can."

I'll try to stop by later.

Bonnie

[Missy]

Michelle....your getting yourself all wound up....calm DOWN!!! (okay, she's NOT going to do that!...:rolleyes: ) Your so ANXIOUS and your again allowing THAT SCALE to rule you...STOP IT! (MY INTENT is not to get into a scale discussion).

Michelle, it's WATER WEIGHT! and it just HAPPENS...it could be your body hanging on for dear life because your about to a whoosh. JUST PLEASE STOP BEATING YOURSELF UP...you anxious about this trip, and that is understandable...but MICHELLE....these few pounds either way are NOT going to make ANY DIFFERENCE in ANYTHING other then YOUR PERCEPTION!! SOOOOO....it's YOUR choice. Are you going to let it upset you and freak you out so much that your focused on THAT! ...NO!!! ~ I'll be mad at you for that. :mad:

Perhaps, as you mentioned, in this last week you have, in the spirit of wishing to do "your best" you shocked your system...so, CHILL OUT! Let your body heal, instead of pressing it for MORE. Perhaps MORE isn't the answer, when the answer is less...rest.

[maxlharris]

First, for your pleasure, a brief conversation from the great movie on power and influence ever made, Lawrence of Arabia (second place: 12 Angry Men, the black and white version).


Prince Feisal (http://imdb.com/name/nm0000027/): But you know, Lieutenant, in the Arab city of Cordoba were two miles of public lighting in the streets when London was a village?
T.E. Lawrence (http://imdb.com/name/nm0000564/): Yes, you were great.
Prince Feisal (http://imdb.com/name/nm0000027/): Nine centuries ago.
T.E. Lawrence (http://imdb.com/name/nm0000564/): Time to be great again, my lord.

Indeed, it may seem like a long time since you were where you wanted to be. You may never have been to your lit street in Cordoba. I remember being there (not in Cordoba, but at something like an ideal weight) my freshman year in college. That's 16 years ago, which is nearly half my life. And, like Feisal, I long for the hanging gardens of that time.

Fortunately, now is the time to be great again. To achieve the greatness we are all capable of. To live that dream. Or at least that daydream.

Michelle: Do what you think is best. It's your science experiment. But, you should only go have the sausage thingy if you think it's gonna move you closer to Cordoba. If you are looking for something to explain why you are not moving towards goal, eating the sausage thingy isn't gonna help. In fact, given the sodium and carbs, it might just confuse the issue.
But, if you're thinking that breaking strict control and maybe taking some insulin, will reset your metabolism and get you back on track, then go for it. Last thought for you, you have come like a thousand miles towards cordoba. 100 lbs. Amazing. Maybe the body just needs a little time to reconfigure for further loss.

To all the 'lics out there: Have a good Ash Wednesday.

To everyone else: Seek your greatness. Its in there somewhere.

Me: I have some work to do, a meeting at 10, and 7 work days left in the Hell of Random, Simple, Unconnected and Very occasional Tasks. And one of them is over 30% over. Great! Workout is done (20 min Intervals, new high in calories, which doesn't mean anything other than I'm pushing a little harder) and I remembered how to tie a four in hand (MIL got me shirts with very narrow collars. I usually tie a Pratt, which is simple and wide, nice for spread collars without being giant). Day is going pretty well already. Oh, and DW has a job interview with an NGO. So, possible good day all around. I think our love is going to a wine/cheese/chocolate tasting tonight.

[Karole]

((((Michelle))) so sorry you are in such a place today. I hope you are open to what the others said and that it will help you.

All I am going to say, and you already know this, is that there is much more involved in your life than that darn scale. Your health. Your daughter, who needs a healthy mom. Regardless of what the scale does or doesn't do, you must watch the blood sugar. It's your choice to make, just like it is every other day.
You've made so many good choices---just the other day you were out shopping for new clothes because you have lost so much weight !! Don't let something temporary (stubborn scale) have control of your thinking.

Your instint was right on to tell us this morning of how you were feeling. Sharing it , no matter how your day comes out, will help you.
Post every 5 min. if that will help you, but most of all take care of you, and know we are here for you.

[Ammy]

Michelle, when I hit my 100lb loss, my WONDERFULLY DROPPING WEIGHT LOSS just STOPPED. I sat there for quite some time.

Weight fluxuations happen. Ups, downs, whether you are RIGHT ON track or HOVERING NEAR on-track. They happen. No reason to try and explain them.
THINK of what your body has gone through during the period of weight loss...it may need time to "adjust", mind did. I stayed at 110lb loss for 3 years!!!!!
Relax...don't get frustrated...be glad you're not where you were!

My GF is complaining that I'm "not spending enough time" with her...she's pretty butch, so that complaint is the only "girlie" thing about her!! :eek: (DON'T tell her I said that!!!:paranoid: :D ).
Therefore tonight I promised to go home after working out and BE HOME with her. I asked what we will be doing and she said she had no plans, just wanted to spend TIME together!!! Sheesh!! We just had supper together last night and a walk in the moonlight!! WHAT MORE DOES SHE WANT!! (Don't I sound like a GUY???:D )

I'm kidding....I LOVE spending time with her, and between my job and my volunteer job, I haven't hardly been home at ALL...supper last night was the first time we have eaten at home together on a week night in...well...weeks!! I'm looking forward to spending time with her again so soon...In fact, it will be my "love" for today!
I am not going to skip the GYM though...I'll just leave work at a decent hour so I can get that done and still be home for supper.

Have a loving day everyone!!

[Shadow]

It takes just as much faith to believe you are going to fail as it takes to believe you are going to succeed.
Great thought, Lynn :D!

Michelle - Thanks for reaching out - that IS what we're here for after all :). And you've already received excellent advice from everyone so I will just add my support to theirs. 100# is a BIG change and even if nothing is happening on the scale, there's a whole lot still going on inside you ;). One other thought - you could change your workouts. I know you love your cardio bands but you've been doing them and walking steadily so maybe it's time for a change.

Happy Wednesday, everyone!

[Shadow]

Amy - :lol:! But how sweet of you to spend time with your sweetie!!! Now girl, I got all caught up on you - except for yesterday :rolleyes:. If you report in for the 19th, I think we'll be on track again ;).

[Ottawa]

Michelle,

I agree with Amy "when I hit my 100lb loss, my WONDERFULLY DROPPING WEIGHT LOSS just STOPPED. I sat there for quite some time."

I think much of the cause is that I still eat the same way. With rare exceptions, Lately (past year) my loss is incredibly slow, yet it does still slink away but now by ounces.:D I could change it if I reassessed like dsome former maintainers did but I still like this food too much. I notice that lots of salad and getting my water help but I tend to eat as a Hedonist and am comfortable with it, even though I way almost every day. Another reason for my slowing is that my BF is already at target or close to it but I still have this little loose overcoat on my torso that I would pay dearly to be rid of.:nod:


One more day of the cleanse fast and I am back on plan before I leave. I went to do some weights last night and noticed that it just wasn't there. The fuels is running low so I'lI have Thursday's dinner be my startup. The love thing today is finding an hour sometime to Finish off the audio book "Desolation". It is one of those ones that just keeps going and you wait for the next oopportunity to listen.

[Karole]

Love those kind of books Randy !! I have been known to keep walking after dark in the summer months just to finish a book.

I would have to go around and around my house several trips to get
to the end , because that was the only light there was. The reason I had to to it this way was because I made a deal with myself not to listen if I'm not moving. I can't sit and be passive, gotta be going if I want to know if the butler did it:D :D

[Karole]

Michelle, I wish you'd check back in with us, and let us know how you're feeling. Hope things are better for you.

[Ottawa]

Love those kind of books Randy !! I have been known to keep walking after dark in the summer months just to finish a book.

I would have to go around and around my house several trips to get
to the end , because that was the only light there was. The reason I had to to it this way was because I made a deal with myself not to listen if I'm not moving. I can't sit and be passive, gotta be going if I want to know if the butler did it:D :D

A great idea on the keeping moving.

You would definitely want to try Dean Koontz' "Husband" then. No supernatural and a fast moving story of what a low income landscaper would do when he receives a phone call ...

"Mr. XXXXXX, we have your wife, we didn't hurt her much but I'm going to hurt her one more time now just so you know I'm serious."

And the story just takes off.

[Karole]

I'll look for that one--- sounds like it would keep me moving along quite nicely !!:paranoid: :paranoid:

[maxlharris]

So, at the turn:
3 meals down
Vitamins and scripts all taken (fats at home)
Exercise done
Work done
Love to come tonight
115 g protein
25 g carb
2 l water + 12 oz green tea fizzy thingy

Looking like I'm gonna have to dig out another Yes logo.

Forgot to mention:
Last night, I was digging though my closet, looking for the suit pants I am currently wearing. I found some old black khakis that I think I might've worn maybe 15 times since I bought them over 5 years ago. They fit a little "aspirationally" when I bought them for a job interview, and a lot more aspirationally the other several times I've worn them. By aspirationally, I mean I had trouble sitting in them. They are a 38R.

Wife asked me if they were comfortable, because they looked tight. I said, they fit wonderfully. She asked if I could sit in them. I could. She asked, "Comfortably?" I said, "For hours."

Damn hanging belly makes any pants that fit right look tight and any pants that look right very baggy around the waist and buttocks. Ah well. Very happy to have them, since my khaki khakis are pretty beaten up and I think a size 44. They require some serious belt work.

Anyrate, on plan, on goal, making strides towards the lighted streets of cordoba.

Hey, crazy, listening to KCRW's Music channel, and they are playing a couple of Izrael KamehwhanaIcan'tspelltherestofitawanna tunes. I was just talking about this the other day. Definitive cover version of Somewhere Over the Rainbow and What a Wonderful World, big fat guy with a ukelele. Awesome.

[Ammy]

I'll look for that one--- sounds like it would keep me moving along quite nicely !!:paranoid: :paranoid:

My recommendation...Dean Kootz intensity...talk about a book you can't put down!!!

I love Dean Kootz!!!

[Ottawa]

My recommendation...Dean Kootz intensity...talk about a book you can't put down!!!

I love Dean Kootz!!!

Thanks Amy. I'll look for it tonight.

[Ammy]

Thanks Amy. I'll look for it tonight.

Hope you find it! Kootz is probably my favorite author...him and John Sanford (detective stories written in Mpls-so I can picture where places he describes).

I've never read Husband, though. I just requested it from the library.

[Karole]

Ammy have read evey one of the prey series. Love them !! I have friends that we visit in Ely and one book talked about the hospital and bars there. It was so neat to read about those places, so I know exactly what you mean.

[Shadow]

Amy and Karole - I am a John Sandford fanatic :D! In fact, I just re-read the whole series a couple of months ago. Just wish he released more books than one a year :lol:!

I used to read Dean Koontz too but he got kinda squirrely so I quit reading him a couple of years back :rolleyes:.

[Missy]

Yes today Shadow! :D Although, I really wanted to cheat for some reason. BUT I DIDN'T! :o (and won't!)

[SherryJ]

Ohhh, you and me BOTH, Missy!

However, I too, report a VICTORIOUS YES, Shadow! :D

Sherry

[Karole]

Yep, Shadow Sanford is so good. I am going to the Library tomorrow and I think I will look for the book Randy suggested , I haven't read any of Koontz so will give it a try.
It was lovely here today and I spent a bit of time outdoors, walking , tending to horses, and taking a little sunbath (to get my vitamin D as per PPLP.) Had to dig out a pair of shorts I had stored away and I didn't stay out very long but it was nice.
Total for:
February 21, 2007
Protein 120
ecc 29
water 90 oz
supps am and I am going to go take my pm in 5 min.
exercise 40 minutes walking outdoors
Good to me: Took a relaxing sunbath this afternoon

goals met yes

[BeccainSC]

For Shadow:
Goals Met - Yes


Though if I don't go to bed soon that may change, heading into "mindless munching" mindset, not a good thing, especially this late.


'becca

[Ottawa]

Shadow ... a YES. Ending the cleanse fast tomorrow morning since I leave Friday.

I played 4 games of Double Quick with my wife for the love thing and she is gradually pulling ahead.

I did download some Koontz audio books (From the Corner of His Eye, Seize the Night and The Taking), and one of the John Sandford Books (Broken Prey). The way you've talk about Sandford, I'll have to start there.:) King is often great but sometimes a little wearing and you need a break for a while. The way he write you would almost think that he uses other writers with his ideas since some are incredible and others very pulpy.

[Ammy]

I don't enjoy King books, but like his MOVIES.
I hear you Ottawa, I need a break from Kootz. He can be so "outta this world" that I am exhausted and have to read something I can relate too. That doesn't make sense, but I'm not sure how else to describe it.

I just got a Sanford book on tape...the hanged man's song... I have read all the Prey series and have gone backwards to his Kidd novels. Not as good, but it's still "Sanford-esk", so I enjoy them.

I am a YES today Shadow . I have exercised 3x this week and have exceeded 10000steps three times as well.

[joanneb608]

Hi, Shadow, it's a YES for today.

[mepc06]

I'm here, I'm better.....had an "E" day actually.

No Burger King sausage "thingy", no GS cookies, NO nuthin' I didn't plan out meticulously this a.m. Did everything I was supposed to and nothing that would "hurt" me.

Thank you Shadow and Karole for your personal notes......always appreciated and really big pick-me-uppers.

Thank you to the rest of you who gave all your encouragement throughout the day. Even though I wasn't online to read all about it, I must have felt the love, because I didn't mess up at all.

Missy....I'm OCD....WHAT THE HECK DO YOU (of all people here) EXPECT? Tell me you wouldn't be the same way if it were you? Come on....be honest.....really. I'll be fine...yes I will...I know I will....I will, I will, I will......:crybaby:
Snow expected Friday night....blizzard conditions.....Maybe I won't have to get on the plane :eek:

Thank you...all of you....I know I can always count on the group to make things better and help me refocus.

By the way....I got a call from the MD office today regarding my appointment last Friday...labs came in BS 128 (non-fasting), wants to recheck in 6 months (fasting) since I'm drug free. All other labs within normal limits including BUN/creatinine (kidneys) and all electolytes and other blood levels. YAHOO!!!!


See ya in the a.m.
Michelle

Todays Totals

Protein- 93
ECC- 25
Fluid: 140 oz
Exercise –10,000 steps, floor exercises
Suppl: YES
Blood Sugars- 116 92
I ate 3 times today
Love Me© Hairdresser after work….I look good!!

[mepc06]

Shadow....I am definately a YES today, I am, I am I am!!

Michelle

[Cacky]

Michelle - glad to hear you mastered the demons! Believe me, I can identify :nod:

Max - what are you going to do for entertainment (let alone money) when your internship runs out? Don't mind me, I can't help being nosey :lol: Luckily, I was offered a chance to stay when mine ran out and was even luckier that I was having fun working there. What was supposed to be a six week stint is coming up on 29 years this summer! (like I tell all the "youngsters", I started work before there were child labor laws!!! :D )

Shadow - put me down as a YES for today!

And I showed myself some love today! We have an onsite massage therapist a day and a half every week. I indulged myself in half an hour of getting the kinks worked out of my shoulders. oooh! ahhhh! oooh! ahhh! I think that's gonna become a regular Wednesday event for me.

[abbey]

It's my birthday today :)

Massages sound like a good love reward to me.

[Cacky]

Happy birthday, Abbey!

And many more!

[hawk]

HAPPY BIrthday ABBEY!!

Yes.....Shadow.. A very busy day today. I just got home and am winding down. Ate right, did my upper body work out.At 6:45 am... I had those 25 pound dumbells in my hands doing my last set of triceps and I almost clocked my self. My arms were so shaky.

I am going down and cruising on the bike watching the video I made of my husbands band that just got reproduced from the video machine I took it on as I ran sound Feb 4 and see how it turned out. Live... at the LAPorte Civic Auditorium.
Good night all you wonderful people...

love you,
lynn

[Missy]

I'm here, I'm better.....had an "E" day actually.

No Burger King sausage "thingy", no GS cookies, NO nuthin' I didn't plan out meticulously this a.m. Did everything I was supposed to and nothing that would "hurt" me.

Thank you Shadow and Karole for your personal notes......always appreciated and really big pick-me-uppers.

Thank you to the rest of you who gave all your encouragement throughout the day. Even though I wasn't online to read all about it, I must have felt the love, because I didn't mess up at all.

Missy....I'm OCD....WHAT THE HECK DO YOU (of all people here) EXPECT? Tell me you wouldn't be the same way if it were you? Come on....be honest.....really. I'll be fine...yes I will...I know I will....I will, I will, I will......:crybaby:
Snow expected Friday night....blizzard conditions.....Maybe I won't have to get on the plane :eek:

Thank you...all of you....I know I can always count on the group to make things better and help me refocus.

By the way....I got a call from the MD office today regarding my appointment last Friday...labs came in BS 128 (non-fasting), wants to recheck in 6 months (fasting) since I'm drug free. All other labs within normal limits including BUN/creatinine (kidneys) and all electolytes and other blood levels. YAHOO!!!!


See ya in the a.m.
Michelle

Todays Totals

Protein- 93
ECC- 25
Fluid: 140 oz
Exercise –10,000 steps, floor exercises
Suppl: YES
Blood Sugars- 116 92
I ate 3 times today
Love Me© Hairdresser after work….I look good!!


lol...I was JUST trying to SLAP some SENSE into you WOMAN! :D ;) Someone's GOT to do it! lol ...you WILL BE FINE MICHELLE! YES, YOUR RIGHT..YOU WILL!..and it will be a fabulous time had by ALL MICHELLE!! :D ~ Oh, I'd be a TOTAL MESS MICHELLE, you know it! Then, I'd expect you to come by and SLAP ME! lol :eek: Tough love baby...tough love! ;)

Happy Birthday ABBEY DABBY! :D

[stellar230]

goals for feb:
02/21- yes

Thanks for the info Max.
Had a good day, I took some time to go shopping today and visit my sister.

[Claudette]

Shadow,

Feb 21 , yes for me!


Social:

Happy Birthday, Abbey!

[Bonnie]

Shadow: YES!

Bonnie

[pelhamga]

carbs 20
pro 111
YES on exercise ,water, and supplements
I am finally get the hang of lots of pro with only 20-30 carbs.now it's easy
I ate
eggs and sausage
chef salad
hooters wings,broc
protein shake w/ sf choc syrup(wally brand ,lot less expensive than Walden Farm)

[maxlharris]

Max - what are you going to do for entertainment (let alone money) when your internship runs out? Don't mind me, I can't help being nosey :lol:

First, I am not an intern. I am a fellow. The difference being a masters degree and 90K in student loans. I'm sorry, but this makes me nuts.

I'm in a two-year rotational program. So, I do four months in an office, then mosey to a new one. So, on March 5, I go to a different office, one that is keeping their current fellow very busy. Also, they have an actual 5-6 month project with a real deliverable (have to arrange a pavilion of demonstrations in Innovative Workforce Training at a 3000 person conference by mid July, in Kansas City, working mostly from Washington DC). At the end of that, I will have 14 of my 24 months done, so I'm kind of guaranteed employment (entertainment, and money) through June 2008.

We are supposed to convert to full time by that time, and become normal civil servants, with a pay grade 3 levels higher than my current one. Would still be 2 grades behind what the average grad of my program made at graduation, but it is better than where I'm at now.

This morning, as I was puzzling over a meeting I had yesterday, about what passes for a project in my current rotation, I came to a decision. If my next rotation is hatefully boring or has other issues, I am going to find a rotation similar to this one (ie no work) to follow that one up with, and conduct an aggressive job search outside of the federal government. If I'm not busy at my next one, I might start sooner. I can't leave before June 26th, 2007, due to a contractual obligation. That reminds me of something I've been meaning to do for a while. Thanks.


It's my birthday today :)

Massages sound like a good love reward to me.


Happy Birthday Abbey!

[maxlharris]

Oh yeah, forgot:

Shadow:
Today was:

http://www.rogerdean.com/logos/images/30-YesKeys2_jpg.jpg


Pro: 186
Cho: ~35
Water: 3.5L at work, more other fluids later
Pills: You betcha
Exercise: 20 min intervals, plus the same walking I was doing with the counter

Love Self & Others: I was gonna take wife out to dinner, then to a wine/cheese/chocolate tasting, then home to the sin of Idolatry. We went out. When bill came, wife grabbed it. We went to wine tasting (free, which is good, because I liked exactly one of six wines, one of three cheeses, and one of one dark chocolates). Then went home to Idol. Comments on that, too big for this space, but let's say, it was a good night to be rich in melatonin and a bad night to be singing the boring songs I hate. (PS- if you are going to sing an Aerosmith Ballad - Crying is the one, not that junk from the Bruckheimer film. That's Rule #1. Rule 2: White chicks shouldn't sing Aretha. Rule 3: No one should sing Celine Dion (including Celine Dion). Final Rule: Don't argue with Cowell about hitting a note when you are in front of a big lady with a bigger voice. It's tacky and Simon will (and did) get the final word).

[Shadow]

Michelle - Congratulations on the successful day AND the bloodwork :thumbsup:!

Abbey - Happy Birthday!!!! So glad to see you pop in!

Joanne - :D!!!!

Way to go, everyone! What a fantastic day for all of you :thumbsup:!

[Missy]

MAX...I've been WAITING for you IDOL post! :cool:

LOVED the last girl! I hope she wins. I liked the two humble semi self conscious girls. I'll save my comments for the Idol thread.

[Anniesnan]

Shadow,


I was a YES for the 21st!

[oceanblueLA]

Hi Shadow. I've been crazy busy and don't remember if I said yes for the 21st... and I'm too lazy to go back through pages of posts... so make hte 21sst a YES!!!

Thanks!

Blue

[Shadow]

Blue - No, you hadn't reported in so thank you! Besides, it's easier for me if people check in twice (as long as the answer is the same :lol: ) than if I have to hunt them down and wring it out of them ;)!